MJ's secret

holiday start lah...

2004-12-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

Yoz…sorry all my friends and sisters!!! I know that I didn’t update my blog for long time ago lah. Erh… slack lah… paiseh lah…in fact… it doesn’t happen any special things during this period and all are very bad things and unhappy things.

My visa was not approved, and then I can’t go to Aus during this holiday…disappointed!!!…. And my laptop’s hard disk totally broken and then change to a new one… down!!!… And my result comes, not so good… sad!!! And more and more… haiz… but, although my life turn to like this, I still have so such fantastic sisters and best friends here, without them… I was no idea how I pass this period.

Nowadays, holiday start lah. I want to look for something to do, hope smoothly!!! So far, I didn’t have any plan for this holiday yet. Erh… wish meet more friends and go out to relax lor. Hehe…so that… when I give you a call, please kindly answer it and say very warmly and sweetly “hi” to me wor. Hoho…

Sisters!

2004-11-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

Sunday, for most of people is a “family day”, but for me just another day in my life which it is meaningless, bored and lonely. Just like what I wrote before. Maybe the Cancers are all very sensitive people bah. But, today actually quite good lah which it still have something to do. Help my friends to move house, and then meet my “best” sisters who Yisha & JQ to watch movie, but why I need to all the way to Bishan arh??? Okay lah. I don’t mind that actually. But looks they always like to bully me all the ways. Haiz…鬼叫她地係我“好MM”咪，都唔計嘎，正所謂“吃得鹹魚抵得渴”。 Hoho…

啫…其實呢，我一直都很想有番個妹啊，姐啊諸如此類啦。我一個人很多時候都覺得很悶，無聊啦。有番個兄弟姐妹陪吓我，不過呢個是我一生人比較遺憾的。沒可能叫阿媽家陣仲生番件嘎。有時候都沒咪勉強太多個。可能有時上天都比較公平嘎，都俾我識番幾個好MM。所以呢，我對我啲MM都好好嘎。我呢個人就係甘嘎啦“人敬我一尺，我還人一丈”。係唔係覺得做得我MM都很幸福呢？都係等下我啲 “好”MM們留番啲感言吧！hoho…

Memory

2004-11-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

Today is my best Secondary friend 21st birthday. The chalet is in East Coast. East Coast… woo… long time never go there lah. I always like to go there “吹吹風”, but for some reasons, I long time never go there lo. I am so happy and excited. I meet a log of my Sec. School friends there. Most of them are changing a lot. Most of guys are in NS and girls are working now. OMG… all of them are finished their study life already, and me, just still in poly. Sad baby… look at them, and a lot of things which happened in Sec. are appear in my mind. Those are all meaningful and wonderful memory. Okay lor, I think I will talk about my Sec. life in some times when I have mood.

Bored story but fun!

2004-11-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

I think when a guy getting elder and elder, his memory also getting worse and worse. I don’t know how come and why, but that is true for me and also prove it by myself today. From now on, you can start to laugh and my suggestion is go to take some tissues there. I am quite sure that you may use it later. Erh… the story start on this morning, when I woke up, it was a normal day as usual and the sun was very shine; also I think I woke up quite earlier than normal. I step out my house after my preparing. Walk and walk… suddenly I found out why today so empty on the street. As all of you know my house damn near RP and I can see many schoolmates on the street around this timing. I was ignoring it and keep walking. But, I feel some ting wrong when I step in RP. It’s look like a ghost school which it’s damn quiet and no people. I was stop a while and think what happen. Izzit a weekend or school holiday? I mean its just 830am++ only. No school today meh?? Wouldn’t be bar!? No matter what, I still keep walker and I feel really something wrong with it. When I reach SM block, MAMAMIA, its UT today! Until this moment I still not feeling fine. But…nest dew minutes, I know I am wrong and shock there outside my classroom’s door. OMG, my class got UT today!!! I was totally no idea and I was think it is on tomorrow!!! God damn it!!! I was totally no preparing for it and I know it’s very hard for me to make a decision. Either going in or run away…. I was run away until the UT finish. After that, then I knew I make a very huge mistake that the UT is on today and tomorrow is a school holiday. Ahahahaha…… izzit a truly prove that I am really old lah. In Chinese is called”铁证如山”. It can’t be object that I am a old monkey.

I know my English is poor and hate write story some more, but I try to do it now. And hope you still can enjoy it! Hehe…it’s based on true story!!! Although it looks quite bored, but funny!!! Because you can laugh me next time use this case lah! Muahahaha…

Blue Moday!

2004-11-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

Hoho… weekend again! I was no I idea how do I pass my whole year bored weekends. Erh, it can’t said all bored, but most of time “yes”! haha… I break a record here. I just spend lease two days finish HP V. Do u belief that? Every single word. Oh mamamia! Of course lah, it’s a Chinese version lah. Ah bo, I think I can’t finish it within one year if it's English version. Hehe… but it stills a record! And wish I can read HP VI soon.

It’s just because that I was sleep very late last night. I oversleep today morning. Means…I missed another day school again, but I still go to tennis training. OMG, this is my last favors sport which I like to play. Although, my coach keep scold me that I play it worse and worse and worry about me, but I am very sure that I can recover de. I think I just a bit fat and since quite long haven’t touched my racket. Erh… of course lah… need to wait until I reduce some fats and train my muscle. You know what Angel said me fat and fat and some more show me a picture lat time when I in FOP camp. Sure lah that time is my quite okay time. Strong muscle and quite fit, hehe… it’s not my fittest time of course. But still okay one. She said she like that time of me. Oh come on, just half year only lah. I got so worse now meh??? But no matter what, “忠言逆耳”. Okay, I think it’s a time I need to gym agian lah. Looks another long holiday come. Can’t let my body turns fat and fat lah.

Another day...

2004-11-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

Erh… looks long time never update and maintain my blog long time ago lah. It happen a lot of things in past two weeks. I think I need times to slow update and rewrite all blogs again lah. The blog is suck…

It was nothing happen in these few days. Why? Don’t know! My life suddenly turns to bored and that’s one of reason I didn’t write my blog for a long time. hoho… I chat with Angel this afternoon. I remember that what you say at the last, “Cheer up”! Come on lah. I was really no idea how to do that. Maybe my mood really depends on weather. Just like these few days. The weather is always raining. My deep heart also follows it. What can I say? I am Cancer wor. Izzit really link? Should be! But one thing I really conform that there is nothing can let me feel happy and cheer up in those past few days. Hope it has some things good happen on me in the next few days. Pray……

Fantastic Day! -- KTV

2004-10-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

Yoz… today is fantastic day! Why? Oh... Come on… my wish come true… I go KTV finally with Michelle, Meihui, Jingyun, Noah together which celebrate Micehelle’s b’day. And there has a VIP, haha…... he give us so many surprise and fun for this special night, David Lee! Woo…… you know what, he can sing Cantonese’s songs and even better than me, of course lah, he sing those old days songs. But, cool!!! He has a very nice voice. I can’t believe that he can do it. He and I sing Alan Tan’s old song “朋友” (Friend) together, and sure we can win the singing competition. Hoho….. a bit hao lian right? Of course lah, Meihui’s voice also so sweet till can let me melt. Hehe……. Bcos she is my “Super Star” and I am sure her “Super Fans”. Hehehe…….

Erh… paiseh neh, our Michelle jie jie also good neh. I think it very hard to looking such good partner to sing Cantonese songs with me together. Hoho… hope “Sunshine” won’t mind it wor! Although, we are very good bro and sister, but let others misunderstand, then not good lah, but I think some one won’t de hor. Hey, my dear sister, still got one more year to go then you no longer teenager lor. Hope you can treasure it. hehe… okay lah, so tired now… miss my bed so much now!

Jealous Sunday!!!

2004-10-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

Yoz… today is my dear sister – Michelle’s b’day! Happy b’day to u, my sister!!!

Haiz… I was very jealous. Why all of you have bf or gf accompany 1? Why only me alone??? I also want my gf celebrate my b’day with me, and Valentine's Day also. I was no idea that izzit I am an unlucky guy here. Every year’s V day and my b’day, I just celebrate with myself until this. Looks is as same as next year lah. haiz… sad!!! But, what can I do for it? Such like this kind of things can’t force one, right? I also don’t want my ex-gf’s list get longer and longer, but don’t have any one of them is my Miss Right!!! Hehehe…. Only two things I can do now is waiting and improve myself. Get a well prepare before my Ms Right come in front of me.

It would be better tomorrow, hope to be come true!!! Wishing…….

Excited Friday!!!

2004-10-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

Haha… I was so excited today! Why? Hehe… just because play the control air-plane under AIG. But hor, I still a bit little sad lah. Why? My plane lose control then crush lor. Lucky the plane still okay, still can fly after that. It’s really hard to control a real one lor, totally different compare to play in computer one. But, never mind then, I am going to practice more during next week. Hope next Friday won’t happen this anymore.

Oh yah… so sorry Angel, I was no idea your com can’t read Chinese words. Okay, I think it is a right time to try to write more English version’s blog now lah. Or I try to write both Chinese and English versions blog. Izzit stupid to do that?? Let me so trouble and more work to do??? Nvm lah, at lease all my frenz can read it and ensure every one happy mah, right???? Hehe….=p

Which is the real one you love?

2004-10-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

一对真正的情侣並不是只有分享永遠的甜蜜, 而是一起分擔過去的風吹, 挨過未來雨打, 一個能和你分享生命中的點點滴滴, 一個愛你的心和你的情, 而真正能珍惜的情侶是由開始的苦到後來的甜, 因爲開始懂得甜蜜的人, 並不懂得分擔後來的苦, 會這樣的分離.

A rightness of real couple is not to always only share the sweets forever but share your sufferings and faces the future’s difficult together. The one whom you love can enjoy every single moment in the life with you; love you and your feelings. The person who can cherish is that he or she can suffer the bitterness with you together in the beginning until the happy ending, and not the one whom you love will leave you at the end when face it.

I am still looking this kind of girl. Isn’t it wrong? Or not be possible? Is it an ideal girl that won’t in this real world? I was no idea now. Who can answer me this question? Why I still search her until this moment? I was no idea. But, one thing that I can conform is none of my ex-girlfriends can do this. Why? Isn’t it difficult? Is it higher difficulty level to touch it? Or it is just totally unreasonable? I am still confused. Do I do anything wrong? Is it too over? Oh my God, what can I do now? Anyone else can give me any answers or any suggestions?

甚么是爱?

2004-10-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

有一種愛，很淒迷；

有一種愛，只能遠望；

有一種愛，註定要成傳奇... ...

有一種愛，像遙遠的大海，即使被酷日蒸乾了水分，它仍會化作甘霖，遍灑饑渴的大地... ...

有一種愛，叫作痛，痛得心臟起了褶子，痛得頭腦空洞無物，痛得意志麻木蕭瑟...

有一種愛，叫放棄，明知道許多事情是沒有答案的，卻想找尋一個答案，真的好累...

有一種愛，叫忍讓，忍讓也是一種愛。以愛的方式善待對方的缺陷，用包容的胸懷寬恕自己的愛人，給他一個悔悟的機會，留一個自省的空間，於平平淡淡中演繹經典，在無聲無語中融洽恩愛。這樣，即使是不傳奇的愛情也將變得永恆；再平淡的婚姻，依然一如既往令人流連。

有一種愛，叫放手。曾經天真的以為不管時間和空間的距離有多長多遠，感情一定會恒久不變，因為愛是沒有理由的........愛不能成為牽絆，所以要選擇放手，從容的讓彼此走出彼此的世界。凡事到極至，傷也會痛。其實愛過就會懂，彼此個性的太過堅強終究會是一起生活的陰影。昨日的幸福已成為一種痕跡。兩人能攜手走完整人生固然美好，可陪上了一段也應心存感激了。愛一個人不是要成為所愛的人的牽絆，只要心中有愛，生活總是那麼美好。相遇是一種緣，相識，相戀更是一種緣，緣起而聚，緣盡而散，放手才是真愛！

有一種愛，叫離開。曾經以為自己的愛情能夠長久，曾經以為真心的付出就能夠換來幸福。其實錯了... ...愛情給的唯一的東西就是背叛，無情的背叛！曾經是那麼相愛的兩個人，轉眼陌路。留下的是殘缺不全的記憶和心痛。沒有想到結局會是這樣，曾經的海誓山盟，曾經的天長地久轉眼都成了飛灰。還記得她口中的永遠，讓我恍若夢中，但夢醒的時候，才發覺她早已離開。

有一種愛，可以默默的愛。默默的理解，默默在心裏裝滿祝福，揮一揮手，讓春草綿綿，落紅成陣。就是有這樣的感情啊，飄蕩成纏綿而溫暖的空氣，就是在這樣無心的眷戀裏，我們認識自己也認識世間，就是有這樣無緣而有情的瞬間，讓我們輕輕的歎息，深深的愛。

好了，这是我转载我妹妹--灵儿给我的日记。它的每一个字、每一句话、每一种爱是那么的深深地震撼了我的心灵。如果说我以前不知何为“爱”，那正是这字里行间都渗着对“爱”的诠释；诠释了甚么是“爱”，真实的“爱”；令我深深地体会了“爱”！那你呢？

此时我想起了灵儿曾对我说过的一句话……欲知后事如何，且听下回分解！

"爱"与"情"

2004-10-13T01:25:00.000+08:00

好一个风平浪静、阳光灿烂的日子。I always feel very bored during my off day. As usual, I wake up very late around 10am plus, and watch HK drama show whole day. In Chinese is call -- 虚度光阴。简直就是慢性自杀。

不过，人生的意义还在于，在某处还有一个你思念的人在关心、牵挂、想念着你。听着你send 给我的“告白”，在我的脑海里尽是对你思念。已经有两天没有跟你聊天和通话啦。I hate MSN in these two days. It has this or that problems make our communication down in these two days. Actually, I also know that you are very busy on your work. I just always worry about your health. 北京现在是越来越冷啦！好期待能和你一起去看看雪。我长这么大都还没见过雪。不过还是有机会的。

今日看《大唐双龙传》，系我脑海里有样野不断地出现，就系“爱”同“情”。系唔系人呢一生就系没办法离开呢两个字呢？父母的爱和兄弟姐妹之间的爱– 亲情，朋友的爱 -- 友情，同胞的爱 -- 同袍之情，等等。都系很伟大同埋系无私的，可一但呢两个字合埋一起，变成“爱情”时，却是一粒包着糖衣的又苦又涩的“糖果”呢？“爱情”往往到最后会变成自私的、占有的、具伤害力的。点解？

Family & Friends

2004-10-12T02:02:00.000+08:00

1st day in school … erh … not much special things happened. Only Angel noticed that I wear a new set of glasses. Actually I got 3 new sets since this holiday. Who say that the guy never care their image? Of course, can’t as same as like the girl’s way, but more and more guys are care of it nowadays. I also like to “make up” myself in some time under some special events or moods. In other hand, I also bought some nice T-shirts and shirts during this holiday. Hehe… guys also like “血拼”.

One bad thing happened in my tennis training in this afternoon. Siao arh… Physical training. Run and run until like “dog”. Damn man… I got injure from it. Its 1st time I got injures from my training so far, and its 1st day in school. Bad luck!!!

I met Mel this afternoon and passed a gift to her. Looks she like it very much. I was no idea that she likes it or not when I bought it. I felt that I am not really known that what girls like. It may base on each one of them who they like. 为女孩子买礼物真的是很头痛的一件事情。其实买什么送人并不重要。重要的是心意和诚意！如果受礼的人能真正理解和喜欢，那就算成功咯。

我真得很喜欢灵儿是因为她很能懂我现在的心情。她知道我现在最需要的、最渴望的、也是最缺乏的是“家”。“家”对每一个人来说都不陌生。每个人有他们自己的“家”。我记得我的好妹妹—美惠，在我回广州前问我，对我来说，我是喜欢新加坡还是广州，那一个更能给我“家”的感觉。我当时想也没想就开玩笑地回答她，I have my Friends in Singapore, and I have my Family in China. 当时的一句玩笑话令我后来感触良多。思虑很久很久，而久久不能释怀。但灵儿在我临走时送了我一个“家”。我真得从心里感谢和开心。为了这个“家”，她熬夜为我做。当时的我真得被深深的感动了。谢谢你，我的好妹妹！只有她是同辈人中能理解我。如果她不是我妹妹，我想我绝对会被她感动的。

Beside the “Family”, I also think that “Friends” are also very important to me. Without them, I can’t image that how can I be survive till this moment in Singapore. I came here 8 years ago; I still live alone until now. No one will care about me; no one will cook for you, no one will wash coats for me, even no one knows about me. I must start again all over things. Go to make some new friends. Lucky, I made a lot of good friends in Singapore, since from Sec. School, my accounting classmates, and RP’s friends. I won’t feel alone anymore now. Although I have own all of them, I find out one thing that I am still a homeless man in Singapore. But I don’t know how to fulfill this feeling by myself. Therefore, I need you—my friends. That’s the reason that I treat each of my friends very nice and true fully. Each of my friends is equal as same as important to me.

今天好像讲的蛮伤感的。不过我的心情是充满感激和兴奋的。虽然我今天挂彩了，不过也提醒我，真的、真的、真的需要好好的减减肥了。每个人都说我肥呢，群众的眼睛是雪亮的，所以我应循众要求，努力减肥！

My 1'st blog

2004-10-11T17:03:00.000+08:00

哈哈... 我终于都有一个blog啦

呢次系我第一次写 my secret. 其实每个人每天都面对很多事同有好多好多secrets. 如果都摆在心里，真系迟早都心理唔正常。

我呢次返广州真系感触良多，见到很多很多我家族里的人。我系出生同成长在一个大家族中。都很明白个中很多很多他人无法看到同埋体会到的野。

我呢次同我爷爷和妈咪上北京，我好开心同埋认识很多以前我唔熟同没见过的家人。尤其系我表妹--灵儿。唉... 我地天各一方。我唔知要如何形容我地的关系。如果我地没血缘关系，可能我地会在一起。我地都系巨蟹座，年龄相近，都很谈的来。虽然我大她一年，不过她好像我的家姐一样。她已工作四年啦，我仲系到读书，惭愧惭愧！在各方面她都成熟过我，其实由小到大，我都很想有一个家姐疼我、爱我。如果她系我家姐就好啰！

依家只能天天上网跟她聊天。都好，起码我地都可以天天保持联系。我都很想她找到她的白马王子。有个人可以照顾她，她真的很需要有个人每天在她身边陪她、照顾她、爱她... 而我也只能问候一下她... 我能为你做的好像就只有这些啦...